writers block o_O

trying to write this outline & it's so much harder than i anticipated! i am not a writer, well, not a serious one anyway. i love the rant & rave & run my mouth (through my keyboard) but when it comes to being serious & being taking seriously, i fell like i'm falling a little short... maybe it's because it's 6:30am... yeah, thats it! i have to meet the guy from SBA in a few hours & i'm not very well prepared... also have to pole really soon too! i feel like it doesn't matter how early i get up, i never have enough time to do everything i need to do. IDK what the fuck would happen if i actually had a social life... i guess it's a good thing i don't have one of those! lol! training for 3-4 hours a day, taking care of my babies, cleaning my home & working at my little part time job is about all i can take. i miss freedom! IF i can do what i wanna do my training time & work time would merge, at least part of it, so i think i would actually have more free time & if not than at the very lease it would be my schedule.

Oh, the Alethea stretching DVD's came out this morning...just bought mine :) can't wait!

OK, back to work!