i've been trying my best to come up with a way to make money & i think i figured it out :D i have my "business plan" written & in a few hours i'm going to try to put it in action! of course, there is no guarantee that this will work, but it's worth a try. IF it does work, it would put me in a much better place in life. i would have control again (i LOVE control), i would have a real salary again (so i wouldn't have to wonder if i could make my house payment), i could continue my education in a field that would actually benefit me & MY company(& it would be fun), i would have time with my family (parents, BF & babies) & last but not least, i would have all the time i ever wanted to pole (maybe i could go pro sometime, lol!). :D not having to worry about where my money is coming from would be awesome! & poling for work would be the best thing EVER too! OMG & i would have a shoe allowance! i'm really excited to see what the day has in store for me... pretty nervous too! this is my one shot to make my life what i need & want it to be again. also my one shot to be in control again... well, my one shot in the foreseeable future o_O i'm gonna do everything i have to do first (like before i call about a loan) so if i can't do it i won't fuck up my day from being all sad & shit :) i maybe dragging my stress out over the next several years but i really think it's worth a shot. even if i fail, i won't know until i try & honestly it can't get much worse when it comes to my finances than it is now... i made about $800 last month O_o & if that won't cause me to loose my home & everything in it IDK what will. oh & at least if i do what i wanna do i would have a place to store my shit if my finances go awry.
now to bitch, lol! :
for the past week, one of us has had an upset tummy every day! the last monday - wednesday it was Bella, then Osker wasn't feeling so hot. now it's my turn! geez! i wasn't feeling as bad for them as i do now that i have the same issue... poor kids! this sucks! not enough to slow me down though ;)
oh & some happy again:
i started taking zinc & i think it is helping my face clear up :) i've only been taking it a few days & i swear its making a difference already!
we have a chipmunk who has decided my bird feeder is the spot to be in the early morning :) i'm pretty excited about that... he/she is adorable!
even with all the crazy shit going on with my life, i know i'm really lucky! i have awesome parents, a great boyfriend && the best fur~kids in the world, & in the end that really is all that matters! i don't wanna fuck that up by working my ass off, watching all of our lives pass us by & regretting time lost when i look back at my life. making my life MINE is the most important thing to me because of the freedom it will bring, financially & otherwise ;)
