holy fuck!

haven't had time to breath lately, or blog :( lots of shit has hit the fan & i'm more terrified than ever before. going to court tuesday, being evicted :( been packing & moving everything everyday. still have no clue where i'm going to stay :( this is a horrible mess & i am so overwhelmed its insane! i have been keeping a vid blog for myself because its faster than typing && the raw emotion is really exposed that way, i hope someday i will be able to watch them & be thankful to be in a better place. i've been taking my kids to a safe place when i have to leave the house so if someone tries to come in & go ahead & move my shit on the lawn the babies won't be victims. it's a pain in the ass to do all of this shit everyday. i know things could get worse but damn this fucking sucks!