i've really been trying to figure out a way to get in a better place in life, financially, career wise & my future. i believe with all my heart & soul i have the power to change anything i my life for the better.... but, to do that i'm need some bigger balls! O_o ! i have to go over heads to settle things, even if it makes me the #1 enemy for a bit, i can't live this way so i see no other choice.
next i need like $500, i want to study at home for my ACE certification so i can have something backing me when i finally get to train && from the looks of things i have a little bit of time.
&& i need a REAL job! like one for grownups with real bills & real lives. no one with a bunch of drama because of children trying to be big shots & run the show. i have been applying everywhere & i hope i land some interviews very soon! i don't want to run my mouth but it's probably going to happen later today, there for, i may end up unemployed in the next couple of hours. i can't hold back any longer & i'm not sorry. not even a little bit! i see no other way around it.
on a positive note, i was looking into how much pole dance instructors make & it looks like $50-$70 an hour is about average $-D i'm not sure how many hours these ladies are getting a week but damn that is some badass income!!!! i want in! well, i want in because it's my passion but the money side makes it even sweeter! i need to find one of these studios who pay that well & move near them. the only way i'm going to make $70 an hour here is to open my own studio & SBA won't give me a loan so i'm screwed in that aspect for now... so i've gotta make a move. even if i only teach 10 classes a week that is $3000 a month! & coincidentally that is almost the exact about i need to survive :D. when numbers work out like that it gives me even more hope & even more confidence that i am on the right path. i mean come on! i need that much a month & somehow it just adds up to what i would earn in my chosen field... yeah, God totally has His hand in this!
in some ways i feel totally lost but when i sit back & think about everything & see how things add up it makes me feel so safe & like i am on the right path in life. even with my housing situation, craphole job & mean shift leader, i still can't help but feeling like this is all going to work out in my favor someday. maybe it's because i have never truly experienced hardship & i'm too blind to see how bad it could get... but maybe it's because i am right where i should be in my life. it's scary not knowing if i'm gonna have to relocate or if i'm going to have money to get stuff i need. i still feel like God is leading me down a path to success & sometimes you have to go through storms to get to the green grass & sliver linings.... right?!?! so with that in mind, i am going to barrel through life & make thing happen ;)
drinking my coffee, getting ready to pole. it's gonna be a great day! i can tell!
