Judgements

this is more of a rant post than a fun blogging post. i just need to get a few things off my chest & this seems like the best place. i feel as though i am judged on a daily basis by those around me, from what i say, do, eat & drink. i will be the first to tell you that i do in fact have a potty mouth. fuck would be my "dirty" word of choice & i use it often. i try my best to be respectful of other & watch my mouth when i am around people who are offended by these things. not because i am trying to be fake so people will like me, it's just how i try to show respect. guess what else i do?!?! i LOVE to taste different hard ciders & beers! i drink beer a few times a week because lets face it, sometimes a beer just tastes good with what you are having for dinner. i also enjoy trying sangria recipes from different places. this does not make me an alcoholic, nor does it mean i have a "drinking problem". months ago i had made a "beers!" album on my FB to keep track of beers my husband & i have tried so we would have a way to document them & fine tune our beer tasting skills. i honestly don't see a problem with this, obviously if i did i wouldn't have posted it in the first place. i also have been having an issue with expectations & things expected from me. i can't express how annoying this is! 9x out of 10 i do not plan out my day until i wake up that day, i like it this way, i make plans based on what needs to be done & then i go from there. when i have stuff to do at home i usually do not keep my phone with me & if i do i don't pick it up when it rings, i just keep it with me for safety reasons. i think it's annoying to be expected to pick up the phone, when i am doing things like painting, moving furniture, dishes & things like that i can't hold the phone & i can't hear for shit anyways so add some background noises & i'm screwed! i also like to have time to myself even if it is while i clean the house. a lot of the time i will turn the TV off & just hang out & enjoy how peaceful it is. i also like to read & i can't read while i'm talking... duh! im getting aggravated with people thinking i'm ignoring them or pushing them away when i can't talk as much as i could when i wasn't trying to fix up our house. if i sit on the phone for 6 hours a day i can't get anything done. :(