enough about the past, on to today & todays struggles O_o. if i have said once i've said it 1,000 fucking times, i can't be anything but true to myself & i don't want to be. i'm so tired of people trying to make me be something i am not. i am a lot of things but a stripper is not one of them. i do have a potty mouth & i'll admit i don't choose to listen to the most tasteful (lyrically speaking) music, but none of those things compromise my morals, beliefs or my self respect. i'm starting to think i picked the wrong line of work, the wrong sport, i think i may have put a lot of time & energy into something that is not right for me :( i'm at a loss for words. no matter how hard i push to have people see things my way i get pushed back at 1000x harder. i'm tired of being seen as hard to get along with when i know in my heart & soul i am not. i'm tired of being seen as a stripper when i know thats not true & never will be. i'm done with people who thing bad of me, try to belittle me & people who make things up about me & what i do. i think i need to make a 180 & focus on myself, my happiness & my finances & live the life i should have been living all along. mark my word there will be some hard feelings caused by this, i'll probably make some new enemies as well, but you know, it just doesn't matter. i want to be true to myself, 100% true to myself! && one more thing for haters to think about... you can't get blood out of a turnip ;) hehe.
you may not REALLY know who you are messing with but you are going hate it when you figure it out. i can do anything i can dream of & i dream big!
