entitled? or smart?

once again i have found myself in a situation that i am not so proud of but there is no going back now so it's time to make the best of it! i am losing my home for sure, 100% no going back! it's done! 7 years of my life, finances & love have gone into this place & now it's being taken from me all because of a misunderstanding about a "making homes affordable plan" that was totally bogus! now that all this has happened it has given me the chance to really think about what the fuck i'm doing here & what i really want to do. i hate to say it but i feel like living your life should be the #1 priority in your life! your family, friends & things you enjoy should come first & you work a job around those things. now some may say that is a fucked up way of thinking BUT stop & think about it for a second before you judge me or anyone else with that mindset because it really does make the most sense. you are only going to be alive for a maximum of what like 100 years? and you have no idea how long you have to live because lets face it, 99% of people don't make it anywhere near 100, even in perfect health bad shit happens & people die so can someone explain to me why you would waste your life away by working 24/7 at a job you despise? having drive in life is great & i'm not knocking that at all. i'm just saying i believe there are more important things in life that a job & money. i am going to move soon no matter if i like it or not so i am trying to take a good look at my like, my likes & dislikes & make my move accordingly. anyone who knows me knows i am a hard worker & i will bust my ass to get the job done & i am proud of that but i do not have the desire to work a 40hr work week at all! i enjoy LIVING! because of my way of thinking i have been called some nasty things lately & it's hurtful but i have to be honest with myself & i am the one who has to live my life & i have to live with the choices i make & have already made. i feel like i have done a pretty decent job thus far & i am proud of who i am, what i do & what i stand for. maybe i do have an entitled attitude & i don't mean to but i kinda do & that is who i am. sorry if you don't like it. i can promise everyone this: if you live your life working 24/7 you will miss important things in life, friends, pets & family members will pass away & will only be a distant memory & you will say "damn i wish i had spent more time with them", "i wish i had made time to call them & talk to them" your kids will grow up & you will miss a ton of important things because "you had to work" & didn't have the balls to ask off. you will age, time will pass & next thing you know you will be laying in a hospital bed, dying, looking back saying "i wish i had made more time for the important things in life". so guess what?!?! i'm making time now! fuck what everyone else says, thinks, does. i'm gonna do what i see fit, i most likely will end up in a tiny home with very little money for fun stuff but i will have time for what is most important! so before you judge me for my outlook on life, think about it & understand that those feelings you have towards me & my outlook are actually just jealousy.

"always be proud of who you are, what you have become & what you stand for! no matter what anyone else says or thinks! live your life for yourself & you will be the riches person in the universe." ~ ❦ Fluffy