Abandonment

once again we have been abandoned & totally blindsided. this time we found out from letters O_o i want everyone to be happy but it still sucks. i also get stuck having extra responsibilities :( i had wanted to go out of town for the holiday but i can't now even if i wanted to because i have to take care of things. this fucking sucks! i don't mind taking care of stuff but it would be nice to be asked & asked in advance. i took the weekend off work so i could have fun & have some much needed relaxation, out of town! so now i have the weekend off & can't leave! this fucking sucks so much! & it's getting even worse because now i have had some people act like since it's "bred in to me" i'm gonna dip out or do something "bad" too! i'm strongly considering just doing what i had planed to do anyways. in the 10 years that i have been a "momma" i have never left any of them for more than a few hours. when i was younger & still living with my parents i did sometimes spend the night out & leave the girls home & ask my mom to check on them. but that was in their house so i'm sure it wasn't a big deal since all they had to do was walk up stairs & pop their head in the room. 99% of the time i took Bella with me since she was the "pain in the ass" not really a pain but you have to take dogs outside so that is something i wouldn't want to expect someone to do a lot. oh & i went on vacation in 2003 & left the girls with my mom but she knew about it months in advance & i'm sorry but 2 cats are really easy to care for, even for a week. especially when they are living in the same house with you already.

prior to this most recent abandonment, i have been stressed out & feeling very overwhelmed with things in my life & this is just adding even more stress to my life... we all know i do not handle stress very well :(